{"id":75,"date":"2022-01-07T11:29:15","date_gmt":"2022-01-07T11:29:15","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/mindbootcamp.org\/?p=75"},"modified":"2022-01-07T11:29:15","modified_gmt":"2022-01-07T11:29:15","slug":"2022-1-7-med5pllk42ea9dxxvbval8darz78wj","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mindbootcamp.org\/?p=75","title":{"rendered":"The Zen of Not Knowing"},"content":{"rendered":"<p class=\"\" style=\"white-space:pre-wrap;\">\u201cIn the beginner\u2019s mind there are many possibilities, in the expert\u2019s there are few.\u201d<\/p>\n<p class=\"\" style=\"white-space:pre-wrap;\">By <a href=\"https:\/\/tricycle.org\/author\/zenkeiblanchehartman\/\">Zenkei Blanche Hartman<\/a><\/p>\n<p class=\"\" style=\"white-space:pre-wrap;\">Tricycle, January 6, 2022<\/p>\n<p class=\"\" style=\"white-space:pre-wrap;\">Beginner\u2019s mind is Zen practice in action. It is the mind that is innocent of preconceptions and expectations, judgments and prejudices. Beginner\u2019s mind is just present to explore and observe and see \u201cthings as they are.\u201d I think of beginner\u2019s mind as the mind that faces life like a small child, full of curiosity and wonder and amazement. \u201cI wonder what this is? I wonder what that is? I wonder what this means?\u201d Without approaching things with a fixed point of view or a prior judgment, just asking \u201cWhat is it?\u201d<\/p>\n<p class=\"\" style=\"white-space:pre-wrap;\">I was having lunch with Indigo, a small child, at City Center [a Soto Zen practice center in San Francisco]. He saw an object on the table and got very interested in it. He picked it up and started fooling with it: looking at it, putting it in his mouth, and banging on the table with it\u2014just engaging with it without any previous idea of what it was. For Indigo, it was just an interesting thing, and it was a delight to him to see what he could do with this thing. You and I would see it and say, \u201cIt\u2019s a spoon. It sits there and you use it for soup.\u201d It doesn\u2019t have all the possibilities that he finds in it.<\/p>\n<p class=\"\" style=\"white-space:pre-wrap;\">Watching Indigo, you can see the innocence of \u201cWhat is it?\u201d<\/p>\n<p class=\"\" style=\"white-space:pre-wrap;\">Can we look at our lives in such a way? Can we look at all of the aspects of our lives with this mind, just open to seeing what there is to see? I don\u2019t know about you, but I have a hard time doing that. I have a lot of habits of mind\u2014I think most of us do. Children begin to lose that innocent quality after a while, and soon they want to be \u201cthe one who knows.\u201d<\/p>\n<p class=\"\" style=\"white-space:pre-wrap;\">We all want to be the one who knows. But if we decide we \u201cknow\u201d something, we are not open to other possibilities anymore. And that\u2019s a shame. We lose something very vital in our life when it\u2019s more important to us to be one who knows than it is to be awake to what\u2019s happening. We get disappointed because we expect one thing, and it doesn\u2019t happen quite like that. Or we think something ought to be like this, and it turns out different. Instead of saying, \u201cOh, isn\u2019t that interesting,\u201d we say, \u201cYuck, not what I thought it would be.\u201d Pity. The very nature of beginner\u2019s mind is not knowing in a certain way, not being an expert.<\/p>\n<p class=\"\" style=\"white-space:pre-wrap;\">As Suzuki Roshi said in the prologue to&nbsp;<a href=\"https:\/\/tricycle.org\/trikedaily\/big-mind-suzuki\/\"><em>Zen Mind, Beginner\u2019s Mind<\/em><\/a>, \u201cIn the beginner\u2019s mind there are many possibilities, in the expert\u2019s there are few.\u201d As an expert, you\u2019ve already got it figured out, so you don\u2019t need to pay attention to what\u2019s happening. Pity.<\/p>\n<p class=\"\" style=\"white-space:pre-wrap;\">How can we cultivate this mind that is free to just be awake? In zazen<em>,&nbsp;<\/em>in just sitting, in sitting and noticing the busyness of our mind and all of the fixed views that we carry. Once we notice the fixed views that we are carrying around with us, the preconceptions that we are carrying around with us, then it is possible for us to let them go and say, \u201cWell, maybe so, maybe not.\u201d Suzuki Roshi once said, \u201cThe essence of Zen is \u2018Not always so.\u2019\u201d Not always so. It\u2019s a good little phrase to carry around when you\u2019re sure. It gives you an opportunity to look again more carefully and see what other possibilities there might be in the situation.<\/p>\n<p class=\"\" style=\"white-space:pre-wrap;\">I don\u2019t know about you, but when I started to sit, I really began to see how many fixed ideas and fixed views I had. How much judgment was ready right on the tip of my tongue. How much expectation, how much preconception I was carrying around with me all the time, and how much it got in the way of actually noticing what was happening. I don\u2019t want to tell you that after years I\u2019m free of all that, but at least I notice it sooner, and I sometimes don\u2019t get caught in believing it.<\/p>\n<p class=\"\" style=\"white-space:pre-wrap;\">First, before you can let go of preconceptions and expectations and prejudices, you have to notice them; otherwise, they\u2019re just carrying on unconsciously and affecting everything you do. But as you sit, you begin to recognize the really persistent ones: \u201cOh my gosh . . . you again! Didn\u2019t I just deal with you yesterday?\u201d And again. And again. Pretty soon, you can\u2019t take them seriously. They just keep popping up and popping up and popping up, and after a while you become really familiar with them. And you can\u2019t get so buried under something once you realize that it\u2019s just a habitual state of mind and doesn\u2019t have much to do with what\u2019s right in front of you. It\u2019s just something that you haul around with you all the time and bring out for every occasion. It hasn\u2019t much to do with the present situation. Sometimes you can actually say, \u201cOh, I think I\u2019m just hauling that around with me. I don\u2019t think it has anything to do with this.\u201d<\/p>\n<p class=\"\" style=\"white-space:pre-wrap;\">In her poem \u201cWhen Death Comes,\u201d&nbsp;<a href=\"https:\/\/tricycle.org\/trikedaily\/mary-oliver\/\">Mary Oliver<\/a>&nbsp;has a few lines that say, \u201cWhen it\u2019s over, I want to say: all my life \/ I was a bride married to amazement. \/ I was the bridegroom, taking the world into my arms.\u201d<\/p>\n<p class=\"\" style=\"white-space:pre-wrap;\">This is beginner\u2019s mind: \u201cI\u2019ve been a bride married to amazement.\u201d Just how amazing the world is, how amazing our life is. How amazing that the sun comes up in the morning or that the wisteria blooms in the spring. \u201cA bride married to amazement, . . . the bridegroom taking the world into my arms.\u201d Can you live your life with that kind of wholeheartedness, with that kind of thoroughness? This is the beginner\u2019s mind that Suzuki Roshi is pointing to, is encouraging us to cultivate. He is encouraging us to see where we are stuck with fixed views and see if we can, as Kosho Uchiyama Roshi says, \u201copen the hand of thought\u201d and let the fixed view go. This is our effort. This is our work. Just to be here, ready to meet whatever is next without expectation or prejudice or preconceptions. Just \u201cWhat is it? What is this, I wonder?\u201d<\/p>\n<p class=\"\" style=\"white-space:pre-wrap;\">So please, cultivate your beginner\u2019s mind. Be willing not to be an expert. Be willing not to know. Not knowing is nearest. Not knowing is most intimate.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u201cIn the beginner\u2019s mind there are many possibilities, in the expert\u2019s there are few.\u201d By Zenkei Blanche Hartman Tricycle, January 6, 2022 Beginner\u2019s mind is Zen practice in action. It is the mind that is innocent of preconceptions and expectations, judgments and prejudices. 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